Someone wrote that it was sad that everything was so impermanent, life seems meaningless.
Robert:
Not sad! It might seem that way when we think about the present
moment- Insighting the present moment it is a
refuge that can’t be taken by anyone.
In the samyutta Nikaya (III, Khandha-vagga, The First Fifty, Ch 5,
On Being an Island to oneself 2:
“Monks, be islands to yourselves, be your own refuge, having no
other; let the Dhamma be an island and a refuge to you, having no
other. Those who are islands to themselves… should investigate to
the very heart of things: “What is the source of sorrow,
lamentation, pain, grief and despair? How do they arise?” Here,
monks the uninstructed worldling… regards the body as self, the
self as having body, body as being in the self, or the self as being
in the body. Change occurs in this man’s body, and it becomes
different. On account of this change and difference, sorrow,
lamentation, pain, grief and despair arise.”“”
(repeats with feelings, perceptions, mental formations,
consciousness.)
"“BUT seeing the body’s impermanence, its changeability, its
waning, its ceasing, he says, “formerly as well as now, all bodies
were impermanent and unsatisfactory, and subject to change.” Thus,
seeing this as it really is, with perfect insight, he abandons all
sorrow, lamentation, pain, grief and despair. He is not worried at
their abandonment, but unworried lives at ease, and thus living at
ease he is said to be “assuredly delivered.” “””
It is a long process and can’t really be hurried but has
comfort all the way.
Question: do you mean that my every living moment should be
devoted to developing parami/kusala dhamma and that’s all what matters? I
guess you’re right; yet my ‘tanha’ makes me feel unsatisfied to
some degree.
Robert: Too idealistic, I think, to say every living moment should be
devoted to kusala. Dhammas arise by conditions: akusala such as
desire and aversion and ignorance have been accumulated for
countless lives and so they must arise- there is no self who can
stop them. Learning about the teachings means that there will be
gradually less tendency to misinterpret them as “MY akusala” - then
they can be known as they are.
Understanding has its own timeframe in which to develop, and
patience is the first parami. If we try to force understanding or
kusala this is because of an idea of a subtle self who can control.